Friday, July 27, 2012

50 Shades

Well, a few days ago I finally finished the 50 Shades series.  Aside from the really graphic and intense sex scenes, which I skipped over in many cases, as I found out many of my friends did as well, the books got better.  Especially the third book, which actually was suspenseful and more of a thriller (although mild) at times.  It added elements that gave you something to focus on other than these crazy sexcapades.  The book was really, really predictable in many instances, but that wasn't too terrible of a drawback. 

Would I read them again?  No.  Am I glad I read them?  Yes.  Why?  Well, if I hadn't, I'd have been left wondering what all the fuss was about, and they were entertaining.  Would I recommend the book to others?  Some, yes, others, no.  These books are not for the shy and faint of heart.  Nor are they for the easily embarrassed or narrow minded. 

I did like how the epilogue really did a great job tying up all the lose ends.  No questions were left unanswered, which was nice.  The story was finished nicely, wrapped up in a nice bow!

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Thankful Thursday

Thankful for many things today, and they're all over the board, so here you go:
  1. Hair appointment today! :)  Getting rid of these roots!
  2. My friend is going to be okay after his terrible motorcycle accident.  A long road to recovery is so much better than no recovery at all, and he was very seriously injured.  People, be careful...
  3. I get to hang out with the amazing Heather for a photo shoot this Saturday!!  That's two in one!
  4. Vegas next week!!
  5. Birthday festivities!
  6. M friends and family, as always.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

The Value of Relationships

Very recently, I found out that an ex boyfriend of mine's brother had been seriously, I mean seriously, injured in a motorcycle accident.  Having not kept in touch with the ex or his family, I was very hesitant to reach out and offer my thoughts and prayers.  Way back when, when the ex and I were dating (high school, early college), I was close with his family,but when we broke up the relationships I had formed with his mom, step dad, brother, etc. all faded away. 

Well, I just couldn't sit around and not let the family know that my thoughts and prayers were with them.  So, I sent a message to my ex's mom.  I simply told her I was praying for all of them and would continue to do so.  She was so kind in her response, and she even said that she was glad I contacted her. 

Just because people don't remain a constant in our lives does not change the fact that you care about them.  We meet people all the time, and people come and go in and out of our lives constantly, but just because you may lose touch with someone doesn't make it wrong to reach out and let them know that you care, especially in a situation like this.  Do I have anything to do with my ex or his family?  No, but for a long time, they were all very much a part of my life, and I certainly don't want anything bad to happen to them.  Quite the opposite, actually.  I wish them the best, and I was so concerned about the accident and what it meant. 

I thank my ex's mom for being so kind to me as to fill me in and let me know what happened.  To this day, she means quite a bit to me, as do so many people from my past.

I think this post is about not being afraid to reach out.  There are so many circumstances that come up where we want to tell someone how we feel but we are scared to for whatever reason.  Fear is something that should not hold you back from telling someone you care about them.  I hope that no one feels that I hold ill will towards them because I don't talk to them anymore.  People grow apart and change; life takes us in new directions, but this was a learning experience to me.  I didn't expect my ex's mom to thank me for contacting me.  I don't know what I expected, but I was so happy in the response I got.  Not the news of the accident, but that she now knows that I'm praying for a full, speedy and hopefully painless recovery for her son. 

People are put in our past not to be forgotten, but to learn from.  And we should never stop loving those that have held a place in our heart.  It's sad it took a very serious accident for me to reach out, although otherwise, I wouldn't have had a reason to contact her.  But it's sad that I was scared to.  In any situation, if you feel the need to reach out, please do so.  It's really the only option, other than possibly facing terrible regret for not expressing your feelings.  Imagine if he hadn't made it?  I shudder at the awful, awful thought.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Negative, negative, negative

I probably shouldn't even write a post like this, but, it's my blog, and I've got a lot on my mind that is causing some major negative emotions and writing may felt me figure them out. 

First off, I've been watching the Bachelorette for the ENTIRE season...  I knew that with the finale being on Sunday, that may cause some problems because we've got other things that we tend to watch on Sundays.  But the finale was 3 hours long, so after an unexpected dinner with some friends, it was just too late to start the 3 hour finale.  It irritates me to no end how the VERY FIRST thing I hear on the radio when I get into my car is the outcome of the show.  Of course, I call Husband, who (of course) informs me that I knew that would happen...  Thanks for that, Sweetie.  I think it's so rude of people to announce spoilers SO quickly after the show ended.  Really?  I know I'm being a bit ridiculous here, but I'm so frustrated.

On top of that, I had a major case of cabin fever this weekend.  Although Husband offered to do something after dinner on Friday, we ran into the exact problem we do every Friday.  Where do we go for casual drinks to celebrate the beginning of the weekend?  I'm sure it's not that hard to find a place in this lovely little town we live in, but nothing ever comes to mind.  This makes me miss the actual city.  Not that I'd come up with anything if we were there, but right now, I feel like my options would be more open.  Who knows...  So, we went to bed early.  Sometimes, I choose to stay up late and read, but I wanted to get up early and run, so I went to bed early, too.  And I got up way too early.  It's perfect for running, but when I couldn't make myself get a nap in, it just made for a long day.  We didn't do anything that evening, and I was literally waiting around for it to be not too early for bed.  Pathetic. 

I'm very aware that this is all my doing.  I simply needed to say, "Hey, I want to do this or go here," and I'm sure he'd have been happy to do so, but sometimes I want him to take the initiative.  He knew I'd been sitting on my ass all day.  Of course I'm bored.

Sunday.  Not much better.  I took Sunday as a rest day because I knew I needed one, and I figured I'd get up and restart the workout on Monday.  I managed to stay in bed a little later than normal on Sunday, which was nice.  I guess I needed that 10 hours of sleep.  I went to the grocery store, but that was it.  Husband had suggested golf, but I don't want to play every weekend.  Every other weekend is fine for me.  I'll get burned out.  Plus, he takes it too seriously.  Part of me almost wishes we'd never started this venture.  When I complained about the cabin fever, he said that he would have suggested other things to do, but I apparently don't like to do much. No, I don't like going to the movies.  Especially after sitting around all weekend watching t.v.  There is also just something about movie theaters that I don't like.   I don't know if it's the germ, the people, the noise, being confined...  It's just not my thing.  It never really has been.  It's not normal; I understand that. 

Any other suggestions as to what we can do?  I didn't want to suggest dinner because he'd spent the day cooking a brisket, but when we got the call to meet our friends, he wanted to meet them, and I was happy to get out of the house and visit.

I didn't get up to run this morning, which disappointed me, but I was tired, and after sleeping so much Saturday night, I can't help but think my body just really needed some rest.  But maybe that's a good thing, seeing as now I can just hop on the elliptical when I get home and watch the (spoiled) season finale of the Bachelorette. 

Aren't I a ball of sunshine today?  At least it isn't too late to turn it around.  I'm looking forward (no expectations though) this upcoming weekend.  And week, to an extent.  Girls' evening tomorrow, date night Wednesday and hair appointment Thursday.  This weekend- photo shoot with Heather!! and pool day Sunday!  Early birthday celebration. :) I'm milking my birthday as much as I can!

So, there you have it.  Positives and negatives, and the revelation that I need to force that good mood and positive attitude.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

And the Weekend Continues!!

Once again, I'm up too early on a Saturday! 

Last night was very low key, and we went to bed early, which may have something to do with me waking up at 6:15! :/  And grouchy.  Yep, I will admit it; I was a bit of a morning grouch today.  But no one had to put up with me, seeing as hubby left pretty early for golf.  I didn't want to run, but I made myself, and it really improved my mood! :) One of the many benefits of working out!

Not sure what today will hold...  But I hope it's something fun!!  Pool?  Nap?  Shopping?  Only time will tell! I've already cleaned a little around the house and worked out, so I've been pretty productive.  Good job me!  Happy Saturday morning!!

Friday, July 20, 2012

So Far, Really Good

Awhile ago, I posted about not having expectations because they tend to lead to disappointment...  My theory was that if you don't have certain expectations for something, you can just sit back and enjoy whatever happens to come about.  And if things don't go well, well, you aren't disappointed.  I've had hits and misses with this whole experiment.  I'm going to try something a little different, but along the same lines this weekend (key word "try").  I'm going to try to blog throughout the weekend, giving updates on what's going on, focusing on the good stuff.

This idea came to me because I have already had such a great morning.  First off, I got a ton of sleep last night.  Good sleep.  And I woke up feeling rested and ready for the day. I got a good run in, along with a pretty good workout.  Then, while working out, I checked my Facebook updates, and... I found out that one of my best friends booked her flight to Vegas for my birthday trip!!  Such a wonderful surprise!  I was hopeful that she'd be able to make it, but I wasn't positive.  So, that was pretty exciting!  Things are starting to come together with the trip.  We're figuring out where we'll go...  Club, pool, dinner...  All the *big* stuff!!

I'm trying to not  look ahead to the rest of the weekend, but I am supposed to have lunch with a friend and then dinner with the husband.  Maybe go out for a drink after, but seeing as he has a tee time at 7:30 a.m. tomorrow, that may not happen.  Trying my best to not let that get me down.  I'd like to actually have a fun Friday night, but if we don't go out after dinner, there is always tomorrow. 

On a sad note, a sweet friend of mine is putting her dog do today. :( My heart breaks for her.  But she gave her sweet puppy a wonderful life, and saved her from the animal shelter.  I know that doesn't make it easier on her, but she is doing the kind thing by giving her sweet little girl a way out of the pain she is in.  :'(

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful that the sun is shining again!  The rain has been nice, but it's also nice to see the some reappear!

I'm also thankful for a laid back weekend to look forward to!!